Category Archives: Soul

A new love affair

I found a new love!

Unexpected, but true.

You see, it often feels there are two ‘me’s. There is the me that is thinking, contemplating, reviewing. And there is the me that just is.

Feelings happen, and these two me’s have a very different way of handling them.

Thinking me uses the feelings as cues for fear, worry, action. The being me knows to stay with the feeling, and meaning might be a result. And action might or might not be needed.

I’ve known for a while that the ‘being me’ is much closer to my core, my soul.

So I have decided it’s time to get out of my way. It is time to love that me completely, setting it center stage.

And it made me burst into this song, out loud, while walking in the forest:

“Only want to be the wind that lifts you high above the ground
Living only to unleash the sacred powers that we’ve found
Only want to breathe your essence, be your comfort, fill with laughter
Every moment that we live from this day on, forever after

I’ll steal your heart and set it free
So free, I’m sure it will astound you
Without my love you’ll never be
In a way, I’ll always find you”

What a beautiful thought, to be the one to set myself free 🙂

And I can just do that.

It reminds me of the Self-marriage, that Dominique Youkhehpaz facilitates. A beautiful ritual to dedicate your life to loving yourself. Just imagine putting as much attention and love towards the relationship with yourself, as you do in the relationship with your significant other.

There is room for me to grow here, this new love is so ready to start blossoming.

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My descent into the Underworld

I spend January on a different kind of field trip. I joined the 21 day online Sadhana, that Chameli Ardagh was guiding, following Inanna’s journey into the Underworld. And what a ride that was! Continue reading My descent into the Underworld

The girl and the Lioness

Once upon a time, there was a girl.

She was young, smart and curious, and she was always working out how the world around her worked.

When are people nice?

How do you get people to help you? 

Why are they fighting? 

What do people do to fix things?

Where does my mom store the candy now?

And the more she learned, the more she saw and thought she understood.  Continue reading The girl and the Lioness

A love taboo

Falling in love is an amazing – let the whole world sing – experience. I always wanted to make it last as long as I could (especially two-way, no complications attractions). The addictive nature of all the hormones, the pure bliss of having been seen by your love takes over everything, and it’s hard not to talk about. Or rather: it’s hard not to shout it out from the rooftops, as your heart keeps singing! Continue reading A love taboo

My Goddess..

Sure.. I am exploring the ‘sacred feminine’ – but what exactly is that?

I have been called by a ‘Goddess’ – but who is she? 

These questions are going around my mind every now and then. Most of the time, I recognise and feel how important it is for me to meditate and drum. To find a way of connecting with that which is so much bigger than me.

Over the past months, I’ve learned new ways to do this, leading to connection and insights. And I’ve noticed the main thing getting in the way: my mind. Once I start thinking, my awareness of my connection with the Divine vanishes easily into the background.

So mostly, I treated those questions of ‘Who is she?’ as ‘stuff my brain comes up with’, trusting my gut instinct on following my path.  But actually, it is a very fair question. It’s just that the answer is not in my mind, it won’t be revealed by logical analysis. Continue reading My Goddess..

Only two more days: DVD on Sacred Initiation

You may have read my post on 11 women that went up the mountain in Crete on their vision quest. They stayed there, alone, for four days and nights, without food or shelter. Seeking to be initiated by the Goddess.

Klara Adalena, the High Priestess who did amazing work to retrieve the ancient initiation rituals, has put together a documentary of last years quest.

I just downloaded it, and will be watching it with much interest.

If you are interested too, then you can have an amazing deal if you decide to buy it before tomorrow evening (Dutch time): it’s now only $3 /€3, as opposed to the still great price of $19/€15.  And she is donating half of revenue to Earthtrust to help save the Dolphins. It’s Dutch spoken with English voice over. You can find it here: http://www.klaraadalena.com/?page_id=2081.

I won’t be using this blog to recommend commercial activities, and I don’t get any commission for mentioning this to you.

I just felt this is an amazing opportunity, and wanted to share it with you.